是美男啊!

當初不該答應 當初不該認識
假裝看不到 無法看到
根本不該看到你

當初應該逃跑 應該裝沒聽到
假裝聼不到 無法聽到
根本不該聽到你的愛情

讓我悄無聲息地明白愛情
把愛情悄無聲息地交給我
連空氣都充滿你的身影 卻如此消失

愛情悄無聲息地離開我
愛情悄無聲息地抛棄我
該說些什麽 緊閉的嘴唇 獨自恍然若失
愛情悄無聲息地來



張根錫我愛你!!!

I keep my love for you, to myself...

I had a dream last week & I have to admit my dreams are usually bizarre.

I dreamt about X-Japan is having a concert at our school but the building doesnt look like my high school nor college @@"
& I was like, what the hell X-Japan? concert? at our school? here?!

For those who dont know anything about X-Japan, it's actually a very popular Japan band during 1980 to 1997. But the sad thing is they disbanded at 1997, & one of a member, hide committed suicide in 1998 :(

I know X-Japan because seniors in our marching band used to put their songs into our band computer & they always play the song when they open the computer or doing something with the computer.
I enjoy some of their ballad songs but feel annoyed by their heavy metal songs(no offence) because at that time I was naive & I did not know what the heck were they singing.
At that time I know a little about X-Japan, & eventually forget about the whole thing until recently something brought back the memories.

I then find all the CDs all the tapes or video clips from youtube like crazy, & I wikipediaed them, found out some details about their disbands & causes of hide's death.

It's kinda sad when reading hide's detail because he was so cute with his red hair & great personality, & his death was so shocking that after his deaths Three fans died in copycat suicides, of the 50,000 people who attended his funeral, nearly 60 were hospitalized and about 200 received medical treatment in fist aid tents.



Now I find that their heavy metal songs are really good & well composed. Their emotional ballad songs are even better.

Please take a look if you have time :)



One of the best, endless rain.
This is the version of them performing at their last concert at Tokyo Dome before disband. Very the emotional loh.








Forever love.
The red hair guy is hide.
fyi, the pronouncation is heeee-de, not the hide-and-seek that kind of hide.







10 years after hide's death, Toshi singing "without you", composed by Yoshiki at hide memorial summit. very sad loh this song :'(
Yoshiki & hide were very close.






In my dream I even lined up at the front line waiting to see Toshi & Yoshiki, I even yell Toshi at Yoshiki what the hell shout wrong name = ="
But ended up they walk backdoor, bahaha @___@
Then I dreamt of Chia Yee booked quite front roll for all of us, the chairs somemore are red plastic chairs loh faint hoh lu kua =.=

When the concert start Toshi even ask all the audiences what song we wanna hear, I shout ENDLESS RAIN! WITHOUT YOU! like siao kia, but when they started to sing I woke up already, BOOO-HOOOO so lame :(


Yikes, I hope they can have a concert here at Malaysia but that's kind of imposssible bah T.T








My external exam has started officially. It will end at 20th November walao eh 8 subjects take so long time. Pure maths & Mechanics has ended, Chemistry & Biology left, God bless me :D

mooncake festival, party at house!

My trial has just finish! But AS external exam is going to start at 16th October until 20th November, sigh.


Had Malaysian studies semester exam on Saturday morning, hope I can pass as I dont wanna repeat it for another sem. It's like hell.


Went home & mom already preparing food.







my dearest mama. She said she've been preparing for 1 week already @@"





colorful plates.






dyeing fly.






the oldest member in our family.








his tumour, hahaa.




now i present you a destructive monster.














the men are starting the fire.



my bro's tummy, lol xD





started to rain after 7pm, my papa damn amteh, haha.
but people still coming. many uncles came very early for...





yea that's right.







today is my niece's deng-lang birthday so we celebrate it yesterday.
she's officially 1 now! :)











i waited for ah seng to arrive until 8+pm, what the heck.
then I called kx wondering why he's still not here. then only i knew he accomppanied Kerting to go Butterworth fetch Tami to come my house party.



Then kx told me their car tayar puncet at @#$%&* (cannot hear clearly what the heck was he saying).
I said i dont believe him.


He said, "you wanna hear the sound of spanar?"
I said, "OK."
He said, "@&%$*%!%& (cant hear clearly but i'm sure it's another lame excuse)"

Then i closed the phone.



20 minutes later ah seng called kx again, asking him where they tayar puncet, kx said in front of tami's house, what the hell = =

ah seng, "really meh~"
kx, "YOU WANNA HEAR THE SOUND OF SPANAR???(very-the-lame loh)"
ah seng, "OK ahh~"
kx, "........my leg is stepping the spanar lah!"


speechless lame loh. FAILED.


they came finally at 9+pm, then Kerting & Tami left after awhile, sigh.



Me ah seng m.voon & kx kept talking talking talking non stop. it feel so good to talk with your best friends.


they were going to leave after 11+pm but we still sitting there keep on talking.
then my mama called them go into our kitchen, my mama gave out all the leftover food for kx & ah seng xD
they said they gotta go, again.


but we still keep on talking outside my house until 12+am. rofl xD

叹

终于考完试了。
好想坐在一棵很大很大很大的树下发呆，享受一下脑袋空空什么都不需要想的感觉。


我想隐居在没有人认识我的地方半年，
也想静静地坐在一个人来人往的地方发呆一个下午。
想成为王力宏的background singer，和他一起开巡回演唱会。





想谈恋爱。
一个人走回宿舍才不会孤单，读书读累了有人可以安慰。
想吃早餐有人陪。想每晚有他轻声说晚安。
想有个聪明的男朋友。

但是不想被约束。
可以和他一起讲三个小时的电话，但是不喜欢sms。
看pps不想别人打扰，电话也不想接。
想有他叫你早点睡，但却一起熬夜到早上。
心情好时想他黏我，心情坏时不想见到他。有mood时想约会，不爽时叫他自己一个人去看电影。
不想他约束我的社交圈，但是我一定要管他参的朋友。



想有人这样纵容我的任性。

想谈恋爱，可是有点懒惰 = ="






再多两个礼拜又要开始无尽的考试了！

my birthday present list *updated 2/10

No, it's not early at all! I'm turning into 18, soon!

And I am not very realistic or behpaiseh or what, I think by creating a list like this I can save up my close friends' time for choosing a birthday present for me.


BiRTHDAY PRESENT LiST
✓ 1. big pink elegant, pretty but cute pencil bag & cosmetics bag.
✓ 2. a pink mini mouse.
✓ 3. a pink shake-head/nod-head solar energy doll which people put it in car.
✓4. sharp pink/light pink elegant short/long purse.
✓5. the famous J necklace.
6. a lucky charm bracelet.
7. a sunnies.
8. pink cute cupcakes! :D I dont mind if you bake it yourself.
✓9. Rimmel Moisture Renew: Nude delight(700).
10. Skinfood White Grape Fresh Base & Foundation.
11. black rope/string anklet with little cute decorations.


etc.




to be updated! teehee xD

trial starts.

兲蛋。

Let's get married...again!

Rules:

Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with the wedding plan!
At the end, choose the people you want to be tagged.
You have to tag the person who tagged you.
If I tagged you, it's because I want to know about you! :)



1. How old are you ?
- 17, reaching 18 soon! :D

2. Are you single ?
- Yes.

3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
- between 26-30.

4. Do you think you'll marry the person you are with now?
- I'm with nobody :D

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
- Lee Hom, duh? Justin Timberlake also can, if he broke up with Jessica Biel. I dun wanna be the intruder, ya know?

6. Who will be your bridesmaid & bestman?
- Bestman : Oo Jiun Wei.
- Bridesmaid : Goh Kiat Xiang... you're the one!

7. Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
- I prefer a very classical kind of garden. Beach is too..... unless I get married at Bali. Traditional wedding is a must too because I'm a chinese.

8. Where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
- was thinking of France but I think I will go there before I married lah, just in case, bahahaha! I want to go Venice!

9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
- not much. Relatives & very close friends.

10. Will that include your exes?
- Yes, but not all.

11. How many layers of cake do you want?
-5!

12. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
- Garden wedding at morning, then traditional type. Yam-seng/buffet at evening.

13. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
- "Before it's too late"(from Transformer... Sam & Mikaela's theme, FYI)--- Goo goo dolls. Want this to become my wedding song since I heard it :D

14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon&fork? knife?
- fine dining... with wines & whiskey :)

15. Champagne or red wine? - wine, whiskey, & beer! "to Arthur!" lol watch too many movie xD

16. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
- Right after... immediately loh!

17. Money or household items?
- money:)

18. How many kids would you like to have?
- Boy 1st, then a girl.

19. Will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
- No.

20. Whose wedding plan would you like to know next.
- Tami's, Huii's, Mabel's, Jackie's & David's!


I hereby tag :
Tami
Huii
Mabel
Jackie
David



Have fun guys! :D

Let's get married!

Last Saturday was my 2nd bro's bridal photoshoot day!


haha slap! not your bridal photoshoot so excited for wad = ="




Should get more beauty sleep but had to wake up early for my favorite class, Malaysian Studies.
Had a 20 minutes short quiz, thought lecturer will dimiss early but wtf, presentation(?)

Until 11++am, papa called, said they've reached Kdu.
But at that time I was at iLab researching Wawasan 2020 (Lol) for the so-called presentation.



Went back to hostel, changed clothes & drove to the bridal shop......... which is just 300m away from my hostel, 250m away from Kdu @@"




FYI my big bro was a Kdu Alumni. Few months ago I asked him where is this bridal shop & he point east point west, made me very-the-confused, ended up I have to google myself to find that briday shop. He somemore say he very familiar with the road here loh!

But guess who got lost at the end :D





When we arrived the bridal shop, my 2nd bro had already dress his armor.




----what a childish face with a mature outfit, sigh.


we were both young when i 1st saw you..... haha he dresses like the "Romeo" in Taylor Swift's "Love Story" xD



& the bride was still putting make-up & setting her hair.








the man who got lost at a place he claimed he's familiar & his son.









my dearest papa & me :D





Awhile later the photoshoot session start.
If you think everything went smoothly then you're wrong.

Behold the power of 2 little monsters!


My nephew & niece... they were so moodless during the photoshoot & my nephew, who always loves the camera, suddenly walk out of the scene like a supermodel celebrity that shouted "我不拍了！" to the crew, LOL.



But after some struggles finally finish loh the whole photoshoot.
If need to continue until a very nice & satisfy photo, I think the photographer will get hypertension & die at scene, rofl.



2nd bro & the bride stayed to continue their bridal shoot, the rest went to Queensbay for xiu long bao, me likey :D









very-the-destructive monsters.





Reached home at 4pm. Siao kan? My precious time......




At night, 2nd bro came back & opened his gmail, & we got this!








hehe. very-the-fat loh!


Still got 1 more photo of my bro & his fiancee. Should I put it on here, too?

Bah!

T.G.I.F!



but to us, it's WTHiF.










......what the hell it's friday.






I did some chemistry experiment today. Titration & salt analysis again, sigh.
Went to lunch after that. Wanted to go to Bio lab to view some slide but ended up at iLab, watching 15Malaysia film with Yeeyee & Chia Yee :D


Went to Health Club Meeting at 1pm, was AGM.
Damn efficiency & systematic *roll eyes*

Kena a big bomb during AGM, sigh.



Went to borrow key of drama room so that I can play the piano, hehe.
But ended up my classmates were having General Paper at there = ="

Chia Yee called me ignore them & just play whatever I want despite the fact that they were having class somemore... All are my classmates??

So I give up, hehe.





By the way, check these out!




my mozilla firefox :D





thanks Caitlyn for introducing this add-on at her blog!





my homepage :D



Someone introduced me the website, hehe.





my Twitter. summer beach party, huhh? = ="









That's all, folks.
quiz tomorrow. Bah!



follow me @ http://twitter.com/freakishjess ;)

你是我的花朵!

blood donation, again!
lookind forward to November...(next blood donation)









i wish that someday I could.......





nah. too lazy & stupid to study that.




Daniel yo yo Khoo.








Daniel & Belle; sweet couple :)







Okay, since many request me to blog more about my life = ="



(1)

Rainy days I likey.
But sometimes it's really troublesome.





especially when you're walking back to hostel wtf.

at that moment you'll feel




(a) sad








(b) hopeless








(c)you wait & you pray









(d)but you still need to act happy happy.












(2)

what I did at college.



(a)I try hard to be Supergirl.







(b) I questioned the mirror.

"mirror mirror on the wall...."






(c) i act emo.





(d) I vomit.







haha. enough of those craps.







kawan-kawanku.














hahahahaha. sorry lah Jiaxing...






Oh by the way, i dyed my hair!



I dunno what's the color, I just told that dajiejie that i don't want to look like a Philippine maid.
hehe^^









my dog & his tumour.
It's a benign though. But still... memang dua liab = ="








Watched Final Destination with Sulaine. (I was forced, okay?)

I was like, "OH SHIT! OH SHIT!"
& Sulaine was like............... she memang steady! eyes did not blink at all = ="
But some scene damn fake loh.



David celebrated Jackie's birthday last Saturday at AmpSquare & me and others tagged along.
It was fun cuz we finally met up! not much talking though, wad a sad case but we still have chance right? :)

We even sang 500's“哦哦哦哦 你是我的花朵” & danced along with 500! xD

& when we were singing the lyrics was "OH OH OH OH OHH";
instead of singing OH! we sang O-O-H! (yes, read the alphabert out loud ROFL!)


& after we sang for 4 hours we ended up eating our dinnersupper at Pelita@Auto City.

Me & Kx one car, Seng & Mv one car, David & Jackie one car.


I wanted to arrive before Seng did but failed cuz I turned into the wrong highway due to my poor eye sights at night. (I turned into the highway which leads to Penang, lol... sudah biasa sampai jadi habit lah aduhai~)

Me & Kx thought we'll arrive after David manatau turned up we're number 2... because David lost in Sunway City! hahahahahahahahahaha~ Next time, bring a gps lah dude xD





Finally me & my group finish our Malaysian Studies assignment!
When you thought the "nightmare" is over, your beloved teacher told you "kelas minggu depan quiz har..." & you'll be like 'wtf I last life own you izzit???"



Well, this is life.





Trial will begin after Hari Raya holiday. Biology & Chemistry lab tests are on next week though.
Ahh... hahahahahahaha.....(laughing bitterly)




2nd bro coming back tomorrow! He's going to have a bridal photoshoot at Penang on Saturday & we get to have a family photoshoot for free so we need to go to that bridal house on 12pm!

Thank God the bridal house is only few metres away from college. Haha!





Will update again, stay tuned! :D



P/s: 500 = 伍佰